My life in a nut shell

There is a new song by Tim Mcgraw that sums my life up quite nicely. Every time I hear it I think "Yep, that's me". I have learned so much about myself and life in general over the last three years. I have learned that things are not always as they appear, to look at things from every possible perspective, and to learn to trust people. All of these thing are hard when you are the daughter of a former drug addict and someone who use to have series anger management issues. Survival becomes the goal and you forget that living needs to occur somewhere in the process. I really am starting to like who I am and what I am striving to become. I am not there yet, but I am working towards my goals.

stress + living at school= sick for a week

I have been so stressed the last two weeks that I made myself sick. I have been sick to varying degrees all week. I hope I am better by Monday because I have A LOT to catch up on. I am really excited to start grad school.

Disillusioned by the Army?

In recent years I have found myself lacking in "hurrah". I fully support my husband, and other military families, but don't like attending most functions. I am not sure if it's because of prolonged/constant deployments or because of the ever revolving door that is the military. I am not big on good byes!

We are coming up on our fourth deployment and I am okay with it because it is my husband's job. It's what we signed up for, what we do. I suppoort my husband's mission 100%. However, I do not dance around and sing patriotic songs when it comes to facing the deployments. I also thinks it's maladaptive to pretend that I am not bothered by the deployments or that I don't resent my husband missing so much of my son and daughter's lives. I don't blame anyone, it's just how I feel.

Whyyyyyyyyyyyy

Why can't I sleep once school starts? The day school starts my ability to sleep goes right out the window. It's actually quite maddening. Here I sit, at 3:16 am, wide awake. I think I am going to have to start taking sleeping pills,either that or lose my mind. I cannot be sleeping for Dr. Scott's class. You have to be alert,just like when you are operating heavy machinary.

Mitt Romney and my hopes

I hope that Mormons aren't voting for Romney just because he is Mormon. I hope the are truly looking at his experience,his ability to relate to the American people, and his desire to make a real change. I think he could bring a voice to the church, but he may not be the best man for the job and that's what we really need right now. It makes me wonder why Jon Huntsman, with his slew of experience, was never looked at seriously and why selection for president has become a popularity contest.